Monday, March 28, 2011

Water torture

Nope, that's not me on the left. And that's not me on the right, either!
I wanted to write a post about what has become a torture session that I actually sort of look forward to: Water Aerobics class on Mondays and Wednesdays (8:15am) at the pool on base here.

Picture this: a former nationally-ranked (for 14 years!) German gymnast who pushes us, her water aerobicizers, to well beyond our LIMITS during the entire 60 minutes of each and every class.

Every day I want to cry, and whenever her back is turned, I rest my arms or legs for just one delicious moment before she turns around to yell at me for not keeping up.  The other day I swear that we had our arms outstretched with no break for 15 minutes straight before she let us rest. Youch!

Before every class, I dread the torture I know we'll be subjected to, but by the time we are doing our final stretches, I always feel like I just accomplished a feat as remarkable as... climbing a 14er or running a 10K WITHOUT STOPPING TO REST!  So I keep coming back.

I'm scared of Patina, our instructor, even though she is super nice AFTER class. But DURING class?  Oh my.

After enduring Patina's endless 60 minutes of endurance training, I'd better lose my angel-wing arms and cottage cheese thighs!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

His Hands

On Abby's blessing day, May 2006
At Christmastime, Dec 2010
My dad and my granddaughter. 

Representing the binding of our family and the effect we have on each other as members of one family tree with many connected branches. These two special people, four generations apart, offer each other so much more than words could ever express.

His now-gnarled hands have experienced much of life-- spending many years laboring faithfully to provide the necessities and comforts of life to his family, and demonstrating love in a myriad of ways to all of us for generations... 

Her small hands are just starting out, many years away from wearing lines of experience or strain. They have a lifetime to serve and work and show love to those people with whom she will share her world. Someday those hands, like her great-grandfather's, will wipe soap bubbles from freshly bathed little bodies as well as tears from soft cheeks. Those hands, now so eager to help her mommy, daddy and little brothers, will one day, without hesitation, bandage skinned knees and hold aging hands, bringing comfort, tenderness and love.

Seeing Abby's newborn hand encased in Dad's reminds me of other hands that spent a lifetime of unconditional love and selfless service. Our Savior's perfect hands ... He serves us with them still. May we daily strive to be like Him:


"His hands...tools of creation, stronger than nations, power without end,
and yet through them we find our truest friend.
His hands...sermons of kindness, healing men's blindness, halting years of pain,
children waiting to be held again.

His hands would serve His whole life through, showing man what hands may do,
giving, ever giving endlessly!
Each day was filled with selflessness, and I'll not rest 'til I make of my hands what they should be...
'til these hands become like those from Galilee.

His hands...lifting a leper, warming a beggar, calling back the dead,
breaking bread--five thousand fed!
His hands, hushing contention, pointing to heaven, ever free of sin,
then bidding man to follow Him.

His hands would serve His whole life through, showing man what hands may do,
giving, ever giving endlessly!
Each day was filled with selflessness, and I'll not rest 'til I make of my hands what they should be...
'til these hands become like those from Galilee.

His hands...clasped in agony...as He he lay pleading, bleeding in the Garden...
while just moments away, other hands betray Him out of greed, shameful greed.
And then His hands are trembling, straining to carry the beam that they've been nailed to,
as he stumbles through the streets, heading toward the hill on which He died...He would die!
They take His hands, His mighty hands, those gentle hands...
...and then they pierce them, they pierce them-- He lets them, because of love!
From birth to death was selflessness, and clearly now I see Him with His hands calling to me...
...and though I'm not yet as I would be, He has shown me how I could be.
I will make my hands like those from Galilee."



Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Happy Birthday, Jessie!

Today's my precious Jessie's birthday. She's 26. I can't believe it! I am so grateful for every moment of her life, for she's blessed me (and all of us in our family and waaaay beyond!) more than mere words could possibly express. I love her and I thank God for her, for she's made this world a sweeter place!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Out here on my own...

This is random, but ever since Thia Megia sang this song the other night on American Idol , I have been humming or singing it. I never saw the movie Fame, but I knew this song and have always loved it. Now I can't get it out of my head. Here's a link to listen to Thia and to the original '80s version:  Out Here On My Own


As I have contemplated the lyrics over and over, I realize that they have special meaning in my personal life. They reflect my relationship with the Savior.

For like the song says, I have my 'blue' days, and I often wonder if I really will be able to make it through this life. Like you, I sometimes feel alone and scared, and I feel that I don't fit in in certain situations, and many times I struggle with wondering just who I really am or if I can measure up to who I know I should be. I know the veil separating us from heaven is indeed thin-- I've had beautiful experiences to show me it's VERY thin-- but there are times it seems as thick as a brick wall.

The beautiful chorus of this song brings me back to the light and joy that I receive when I put my focus on the reality of my Savior. Whenever I take the opportunity to look at life with an eternal perspective, it's like closing my eyes so I can be with my Savior, begging Him to help me through and to (interesting thought) help me need Him.

One of my favorite scripture stories is the account of Peter walking on the Sea of Galilee. 

As long as he kept his eyes on his Savior, he was able to continue walking no matter how frightening the storm or how fierce the waves. The second he took his eyes off of Jesus, he became terrified of the height of the storm-driven waves and the blackness of the sea, and he immediately sank. But Jesus reached forth and pulled Peter back up. Peter could have drowned, but he CHOSE to reach up and grab hold of his Savior, and he lived. And learned an invaluable lesson about faith.




So... here are those lyrics.  See? I did NOT get off topic... Not really...

Out Here On My Own (from Fame)
Sometimes I wonder where I've been,who I am, do I fit in...
Make believing is hard alone... out here on my own.

We're always proving who we are, always reaching for the rising star
To guide me far and shine me home out here on my own.
When I'm down and feeling blue, I close my eyes so I can be with you. 
Oh, baby, be strong for me, baby, belong to me... Help me through... Help me need you.
Until the morning sun appears, making light of all my fears
I dry the tears I've never shown out here on my own.

When I'm down and feelinf blue, I close my eyes so I can be with you. 
Oh, baby, be strong for me, baby, belong to me... Help me through... Help me need you.

Sometimes I wonder where I've been, who I am, do I fit in...
I may not win, but I can't be thrown out here on my own.